sometimes i wonder, why has all the bad things been happening to me lately...
a moment ago, i can still chat and joke joyfully wif frenz and in a split second, i'm dealt wif problems tat make me so lost in myself...
last nite, sis and i had a chat...abt 45 mins...
she sae perhaps God set up all these tests for us...
to let us be more independent and mature...
however, i tink...these tests are too harsh for me..
have been using lotsa crude words recently...
words tat i have stopped using except during my rebellious stage...
i cant believe myself tat these words actually come out from my mouth..
wad happens to me?
the minute i start saying those crude words, i juz cant stop scolding...
den, i will regret wad i have done....
regrets brought me nth but guilt and sadness...
i juz hope tat all these will be over soon...
i dun wish to see the scene over and over again...
unless its a blissful sight...
i'm exhausted...

the devils within are enjoying while the angels in me are crying hard....

drop dead [♥]